Been feeling a little hopeless

I’ve been fight with my mental health by myself for basically my entire life. I’ve never been able to talk to anyone about it. I feel my childhood trauma changes me to this day, and I dislike to admit that things that happened so long ago still has such an effect on me. I feel wrong for feeling that way because it feels like I’m excusing myself for my demeanor. candidly I’ve been trying to figure out what is wrong with me for so long and I don’t recollect I can do it myself. I’ve taken set my mental health issues into my own hands and it’s been an absolute rollercoaster. I haven’t had a streamline feeling of feelings for a long time. I haven’t felt regular in a very long time. I simply can’t do this alone. And I don’t think it’s fair to expect me to make love alone. I’ve invested so much time self analyzing and I’ve never been able to find out what is wrong with me. I want full ego ensure of my brain which is a big goal for someone spiritual, but do we acknowledge that our brain chemistry can be altered from pain? Is it valid to say I can’t prepare it all myself? I’m tired of being expected to do it alone. I need help and I detest be acknowledged. I feel ashamed to say it.

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